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Music and Its Soothing Effects

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I know that it’s kinda corny at times to think about phrases like “music soothes the savage beast” or more profound ideals like Anais Nin’s “music melts all the separate parts of our bodies together,” but I feel that music can do a lot of these things. Within the past few weeks, I have been a little stressed to say the least (to say the most would not be fun) and haven’t been able to find my focus due to things that are going on in my life. However, tonight, instead of letting myself get bogged down in my own thoughts and crummy feelings, I spent a little while on looking up musicals and opera because they intrigue me. Before I knew it, I had spent a care free hour listening to everything from “It’s not Easy Being Green” sung by Big Bird at a Jim Henson tribute (which is heartbreaking) to “Glitter and Be Gay” (a song from Candide the Musical) to The Queen of the Night Aria from Mozart’s Magic Flute. All these songs help me in ways that express a little of what is going on in my head.

It’s a song with a beautiful sentiment to memorialize the memory of Kermit and the man behind him. It also helped to listen to something that was a little blue.

With this one, “The Queen of the Night Aria” performed by Diana Damrau is beautiful and exciting and sort of helps punctuate all the anger, frustration, and angst I’ve been feeling…so yeah…

This last one was just for fun because I needed something to help lift my dark mood. “Glitter and Be Gay” performed by Kristin Chenoweth is pretty amazing because it is light and airy while dealing with some pretty depressing ideals (i.e. she is betrothed to a random duke or other…). It’s a perfect mood lifter…Overall, I feel like this may have help me run a full gambit of emotions while not really thinking about it…while this may not seem healthy or logical to some people, music helps me move along in my mentality and to think through things…maybe you do the same thing and don’t even realize…


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An indian summer

The heat rails against

The spirit that I have salvaged.

I cannot feel what

The others want me to feel.

Pumping hips,

Vigorous needings…

Allowing myself to feel

Exposed to the world.

Feeling what I haven’t allowed myself to…

No matter, I put on my armor again…

I cannot allow another chink to leave me


Written by uncannynerdyguy

July 1, 2010 at 12:31 am

Send in the Clowns

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So, today, when I arrived back at my apartment after being out all day. I settled in front of my computer for a few minutes before I went to shower and ready myself for bed, and a song popped into my head because I was in the appropriate mood for it. “Send in the Clowns” from the Sondheim musical A Little Night Music, which I don’t know a terrible lot about, arrived in my psyche.

If you’re familiar with the song, it is generally sung by a woman, and it almost seems like she is talking about being in a circus…because this is what all the metaphors and similes contained within the piece are about. But if you go deeper, you will find that the song is actually about a failing relationship which seems like it is just falling apart. In the course of the song, the actress sings that people need to send in the clowns to detract from what is really going on (in the circus world of old this was actually done if something happened unexpectedly). She continues to plead with them and her lover as the song progresses until at the very end she says “don’t bother, they’re here” referring to herself and her mate. She knows that their relationship is in a funk that will probably never resolve itself. Thereby, it is a mockery and a show to all who look upon it. They are in fact the clowns.

Today, this song entered my mind because of the mood that I’ve been in. Now, I don’t have a faltering relationship that I’m dealing with or anything to that effect. It’s just that I feel like my world is topsy-turvy, and I feel like I myself am on display as a clown (not to say that I don’t enjoy being a clown every once and a while). It’s just such an odd feeling. I’m not necessarily saying that it’s a bad feeling either…it’s just an emotion that is going wonky on me…hmmmmm….Anyway, here’s a great version of the song performed by Glenn Close. I hope you enjoy.

Poetry and Writing

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If you have visited my blog, follow it, or are just seeing it for the first time, it will be very evident that I like to write poetry. I don’t know what it is exactly, but poetry fascinates me. I mean honestly think about any poem you like. Poems take us to places that prose cannot. Why do I say this? It is because poetry taps into the raw inner being that is our unconscious, purely human side. I know it might sound silly; however, think about it. What prose has ever made you feel in a few sentences what a poem does?

–Poetry has a need to be concise. If it isnt’, generally, the poet will lose their audience fairly quickly. When dealing with a not linear form of writing (as I think poetry is due to the fact that it does not necessarily follow a set pattern of word placement or have a definite placement on the page), it is easy for a reader to meander off the beaten path and be totally unaware of what is going on. This is why in my own personal poetry I avoid flowery language a lot of times. This is why I have very specific word choice. This is to create vivid images/thoughts directly in the minds of those reading (at least that is my aim).

–Poetry is a writing of emotions. If you don’t have some feeling behind your words in a poem, most assuredly, the poem will be dry and stagnant. Poetry is a wonderful because it connects with us on that emotional level. Whereas, other literary forms can leave us feeling very detached and on the outside looking in.

–Songs are poetry. This may be another reason why poetry connects with people (including myself) so well. I am a person who loves music. I’ll listen to anything from Lady Gaga to The Phantom of the Opera to classic rock and most everything in between. I am musically eclectic. The lyrics of these songs are poetry in their own right. Each word is chosen specifically to convey some emotion in the song (which the actual music also helps too). Think about any song. If you took the lyrics away from the music, the words themselves would be a stand alone poem in its own right.

 Why do I write poetry? It’s simply because it allows me to get out ideas and thoughts that any other medium would have trouble conveying. Now, I’m not saying that I’m an Emo kid writing poems about death and pain (however, I do have poems about death and pain…I just don’t think they’re emo-rific. They’re classier than that). My poems are inspired by life and the world around me…some are silly (like one about a piece of lemon floating in a glass), some are creepy (like another about an angel [Satan] sitting on a hill watching soldiers die), some of them are commentary on the world (like “Stardom”)…I write poetry because it frees me and allows me to connect with others in a way only poetry can.

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March 18, 2010 at 11:25 pm