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Hi, I’m Barry, and I’m a Procrastinating Perfectionist

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Being in Graduate school now, I’m realizing that some of my old ways will not fly simply because of the amount of work that I’m having to do for school in tandem with teaching time and preparation. I am having to break some of the habits that I have acquired in my undergrad and that I’ve developed as of being out of school for the past couple of years…*sigh*….however, the biggest one of these is my procrastinating perfectionism.

It’s a terrible thing to be actually…if I didn’t give a shit it would all be okay. However, I do care about the quality of my work and will stay up late the night before an assignment is due trying to bang it out and bring it up to my standards at the same time. Now, I will not say that I have ever been a “great” writer because believe me I can improve. Yet, recently, I’ve realized that with the amount of reading that I do for classes in a weeks time teamed with this is likely the recipe for disaster. So, I’m trying to do a few things to help me keep focused and moving forward.

1) Having a schedule. At least mentally, I want to have my days nailed down so I know exactly what I need to do to get my work accomplished and still have some time for Barry. I know some people might say that I need a planner, and maybe I do. However, they have never worked for me in the past. I can’t see them working for me now…

2) Try to finish drafts of paper in advance of the final due date. This may seem like a no brainer to some people out there, but to me, it seems practically foreign. My mind says that I will do better if I work under pressure. Still, a part of me knows that it would be a great relief to have the stress removed from my mind earlier, and then, I could polish the drafts to make them better, rather than turning in a first draft. Doing so could also help me get people to look over my work and check for those dreaded grammatical errors…people are much more willing if you do it in advance…

3) Try to remain organized. Now, I won’t say that I’ve ever won an award for being the most organized person in the world, but I do try to stay on top of things. My theory is if I keep things were they are accessible and evident that I might not lose something…which is the worst feeling in the world (I’m actually looking for a copy of Microsoft Office right now that I have misplaced…it’s old, but I need it for a new PC).

Maybe with a little determination and force of will, I can keep up with these few guidelines that I’ve set for myself and won’t be freaking out at the time of finals wondering how in the hell I’m going to finish everything that I’ve let pile up around me. They say the first step in fixing a problem is to admit it…so, yeah….that one is out of the way.

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September 27, 2010 at 2:44 pm

A Transitory Life

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Since completing college in the spring of 2008, both years have been completely different in regards to where I lived, who I lived with/around, and what I was doing. Now, with the news that I will be getting to go to Graduate School in the fall and that I will be a Graduate Teaching Assistant, my life is again about to change.

The year after my bachelor’s degree was awarded was spent in Nashville, Tn. Here I worked at a Kroger with some of the most interesting people that I can ever say I have worked with. It was a fun job, and life in general was pretty care-free. I lived with several of my roommates from college, and we were all pretty much degenerates for the majority of the time that we lived there.

The past year 2009-2010 (and given, I’m talking in terms of school years because that’s how my life has been tailored), I have been teaching and tutoring at my Alma Mater. It has been one of the most rewarding experiences of my life. I have gotten to reconnect with so many people, and they have become my close friends. We have had many fun and exciting times. From game nights to walks about the town or talks about the chores that their household will perform, we have created memories that I will chuckle about for years to come.

Now, however, I am about to embark on my third completely different journey in as many years, I am about to head off to graduate school. I don’t know what it holds for me. I know that if I can keep my wits about me that I will succeed because I know that it will not be entirely easy…is there anything in life that’s good that is easy? If all goes well, in a couple of years, I should have a Masters degree in some English field (still haven’t quite pegged down what I want yet).

So, yeah, that’s just a brief overview of what’s going on with me. My life seems in a constant state of flux, but as one really annoying person from my past said to me “Blessed are the Flexible for they shall not break.” I will continue to be flexible. Change is usually good. I mean after all isn’t variety the spice of life?

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May 1, 2010 at 11:53 am

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The Waiting

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Everyone has to do it at some point or other…they have to wait. However, waiting is not fun to any degree of the word. Why? Because we are left agitated and anxious about whatever it is that we’re waiting on. Whether that something be sitting in line at Wal-Mart or hoping to hear back from a college/university about your admissions status, waiting is very difficult. Right now, I am waiting myself to hear back from a university as to whether I will be a Graduate Teaching Assistant or not. This fact is making me very anxious because it’s part of determining where and what I will be doing with the next few years of my life, and I’m hoping that it will be decided soon.

This morning while I was sitting here thinking about this fact, my iTunes was on shuffle and a great song came on that speaks directly to this fact. “The Waiting” by Tom Petty and the Heartbreakers is a song that addresses this in terms of relationships. However, the chorus and the bridge apply to pretty much all of life.

“The waiting is the hardest part
Every day you see one more card
You take it on faith, you take it to the heart
The waiting is the hardest part”

“Oh don’t let it kill you baby, don’t let it get to you
Don’t let it kill you baby, don’t let it get to you
I’ll be your bleedin’ heart, I’ll be your cryin’ fool
Don’t let this go too far
Don’t let it get to you”

The song tells us that we shouldn’t worry about where we’re at because we will eventually get to where we’re going whether it be seeing one more card a day of the future or something more drastic. This song has placed a positive spin on my day. I know that I will continue to worry about “The Waiting” because that’s the kind of person I am; however, I think I can be a little more relaxed about it.

“The Waiting”

Fun 80’s-rific Video. Enjoy.

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April 23, 2010 at 11:06 am

Scattered: An Ode to Chaos

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Right now, I am on a rollercoaster as far as my life. Why? Because I have placed myself there. I know that it may not seem like I need to be blogging with the amount of stuff that I have to do; however, it seems to be the only thing that is keeping me sane at the present moment in time.

Along with teaching 3 classes (with the nearing of the end of the semester, the grading is getting a little chaotic) and tutoring in our school’s writing center (around 17-20 hours a week), I am also involved in things that I love to do but have also realized that I may have bitten off more than I can chew. Doing two plays in a semester along with being in 2 choirs is kind time consuming to do. Some days I look at what I’ve accomplished for that day and think that I’m lucky to fit it all in….(believe me much prioritization goes into this…some things suffer. However, I give full attention to my job. After all, that is what I’m getting paid to do. And if I don’t, 40 some odd people are not going to be getting the attention and time they deserve).

Don’t get me wrong….I’m not bitching because I’m doing all these things. Matter of factly, I love to do all the things that I’ve mentioned. It’s just that I feel like I may be slacking time wise on some of them. I’m also trying to get my future life together as well. I’m planning on returning to Graduate school in the fall…and have yet to give this the full attention that it deserves  because I’m a person who focuses on the present. However, I’ve been seeing that I do need to devote some time to these “future” prospects because I do want to get my Master’s degree…yet, I feel on some level that myself is trying to undermine me…who knows?

I’m actually writing this to myself to tell myself: “Self, you need to suck it up and do everything. Also, invest in a PDA because that would probably help make your life a little more organized.” Now, all of you out there in the interweb may be thinking that I’m crazy, but I”m hoping that this will help organize the chaos of my mind by writing it all down and seeing what tips others might have for me.

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March 24, 2010 at 2:08 pm

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